Susan “Copeland” Hemauer was born April 17, 1998.
God was by her side and she proved to be a fighter long before she ever
came in to this world.
When I was 7 months pregnant with her, on March 17, 1998, I
had an AVM (Arteriovenous Malformation) rupture in my brain. This is a spaghetti
of veins and arteries that could not handle the extra blood flow that a
pregnancy brings. Fortunately, it
occurred in the middle of the night when my husband, Keith, was home and the
ambulance was immediately called. Fortunately,
we lived very close to a hospital in Washington, D.C. (George Washington
University Hospital) that specialized in Neurosurgery. And fortunately again,
the AVM was situated in a place in my brain that only affected the motor skills
of the left side of my body.
I began having contractions that night and we were afraid
that Copeland was going to join us way too early. But she proved to be strong, forgave me for this brief
interruption and stuck with me.
That night, the doctors then “glued” the veins and arteries shut in hopes of
preventing another rupture until after Copeland was born.
Knowing that they couldn’t risk me going in to labor, they began to
give me steroids to boost up Copeland’s lung growth and we planned a C-section
6 weeks before her due date. A
Craniotomy, to remove the AVM, would be done after Copeland was born. In the
meantime, she kept with me as I went through a lot of physical therapy to
re-gain my ability to walk and use the limbs and extremities on my left side.
The rupture had also caused some blood to travel through my Optic Nerve
and settle behind my Retina causing a situation called Terson’s Syndrome.
Basically, I couldn’t see. My sight shifted between having large black spots in my
vision to looking like I had wax paper over my eyes.
They were pretty sure my mobility would come back. Because of the
location of the blood, they weren’t so sure my sight would. My worst fear, of
course, was that I wouldn’t be able to see Copeland when she was born.
That was a horrible feeling.
As I said, the day Copeland was born was a planned
C-section. I was one of few women
who actually gets to know when their baby is going to come.
Even so, my makeup and hair still looked awful because I couldn’t see
to put myself together correctly.
That was going to prove to be the least of my concerns…
When they delivered Copeland I kept listening to hear her
cry. By that point, that was all I
cared about.
I should tell you that during my pregnancy, my
alpha-fetoprotein blood test came back as a false-positive.
Although false-positives on this test are common, it was uncommon due to
the fact that I was only 28 years old. So
early on, Keith and I were able to prepare for the “what if” scenario.
We went through the possibilities and knew that whatever child God had
prepared for us would be the most perfect being in this world.
And she is.
| Before they took her out of the delivery room, I got to see
her briefly but between the hat on her head and my eyesight comparable to
having a ball cap down over my eyes, nothing about her features seemed out
of the ordinary. They did
tell me that they needed to take her in to the Neonatal Intensive Care
Unit though and that I would be able to see her after my anesthesia wore
off and they had stabilized her breathing.
Well, this took hours and seemed to be forever! The nurses were
kind enough to take the picture below and bring it to me. I taped it to my
bed and stared at it until I got to see her.
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In the meantime though, my doctor came in and told me that
Copeland was born with a craniofacial syndrome that they hadn’t been able to
diagnose yet but thought it might be Goldenhar. They were contacting a Geneticist at Children’s National
Medical Center to come, make the diagnosis and talk with us. I really could have cared less and most of what was said to
me at that point went in one ear and right out the other. Like I said, all I cared about was that she was alive, she
remained that way and when could I see her.
Finally, the head nurse of the NICU, broke the rules and
allowed me to come in. They wheeled my big hospital bed in between all those
little preemie beds that lined the NICU and I finally got to see Copeland and
hold her for the first time. Wow!!
How do you describe that feeling? It was the most beautiful moment of my life
and she was the most beautiful baby I had ever seen!
My life had suddenly changed and had a lot more meaning.
I should mention here too that even though Copeland was 6
weeks early, she weighed 7.5 lbs. I’d
say God and those steroids were doing just fine. After spending only 2 weeks of the month expected in the
NICU, she got to come home. It took a while for both of us to get the hang of
the cleft palate bottle but once we got it, she started thriving and took off.
Copeland’s Treacher Collins presented itself with
bilateral Microtia/Atresia of the ears (closed and malformed outer ears), a
small chin, unilateral choanal atresia (one nostril closed), and a cleft palate.
Hmmm. Which did we concern ourselves with first? Pretty much all of them.
The ears had to be addressed immediately so that we could get her a
hearing aid. The small chin had to be addressed immediately because of the
breathing difficulties it caused along with the choanal atresia and the cleft
palate had to be addressed immediately because of the feeding problems it
created.
By the time of her 1st birthday, she had had her
choanal atresia repaired and her cleft palate closed. Until that point, we used a cleft palate (squeezable) bottle
and a preemie nipple to feed her. She
had started eating solid foods but that was difficult because she would hold it
in her mouth and it would eventually come up through the cleft palate and
through her nose. A bit disturbing
to those around us when she ate in public…
She got her hearing aid at 3 months old and we immediately
began speech therapy through the John Tracy Clinic out of California.
After reading all the different communication methods (Total
Communication, American Sign Language, Cued Speech and Oral), I nervously chose
Oral but continued to teach her some signs.
This turned out to be the best possible choice because Copeland has
responded to it so well. I breathed a sigh of relief when she finally began
talking. She can now talk your ear off about everything and anything!! She is
even testing above her age level in vocabulary and comprehension.
When Copeland was 14 months old, she had a second sleep
study to determine if she was having sleep apnea. Since she had left the hospital she wore an apnea belt around
her chest connected to a monitor. She
also would sleep with her head almost at a 90 degree angle. When this sleep
study came back abnormal we realized that problems that should have been
resolved as she got older and grew were not getting better. While waiting for
the 3rd sleep study appointment, she got a cold and her breathing
became incredibly labored. She
would take breaks in her breathing when she slept and we would hold our breath
until she would start back up again. Obviously, something was very wrong and she
began on Oxygen immediately until the surgeries could be scheduled.
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Before her 2nd birthday, Copeland would have a
Tracheostomy, Tonsillectomy and a Jaw Distraction. The cold had made her tonsils swell up and almost closed off
her throat completely. This just
highlighted the problem that her airway was much narrower than originally
believed. Outwardly, Copeland’s
jaw did not seem as severe as many other’s with Treacher Collins.
It was deceptive and needed to be corrected.
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Receiving the trach was very scary for all of us.
As many with a trach know, there is a lot of maintenance.
You can’t allow the trach to get plugged, you have to keep it suctioned
to prevent infection, change it regularly and keep it clean and so on and so on. There was also the added concern about her speech. Would her
speech and vocabulary be able to continue to develop and what about her
articulation? Well, the Passy-Muir
valve waylaid our fears about that. She began wearing it before we even left the
hospital.
The trach stayed in for a mere 9 months and was removed
after a successful but intense and difficult jaw distraction and her jaw was
wired shut for 3 ½ weeks. Her
breathing is now very stable and she even scares me at times because she sleeps
so soundly that I have to go in and stare at her chest until I see it moving.
Isn’t that what all mothers do though?
My husband and I fully believe that God has something very
wonderful planned for our little girl. God
has been with her as she has pulled through so much from a bumpy ride in the
womb to a very painful jaw distraction that we know there is nothing that this
life can throw at her that she won’t be able to handle and won’t be able to
trust in God to carry her through. Already
we know that she has inspired so many by the energy, determination and spirit
she has shown through all of her surgeries.
She is proving to be very bright, very smart and has the most gentle
spirit. Copeland loves to sing, she loves to paint and color, she absolutely
loves music and most of all she loves being read to and “reading” to her
animals. Her imagination is
limitless and can turn her blanket in to anything her mind can think up.
It is great fun seeing her develop and grow in to a beautiful little
girl.
Everyday that she discovers something new, we are amazed by
Our Little Miracle.
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| Keith, Copeland, and Kathleen |
Halloween 2000 |
Sleepy girl! |
Watch a video (in QuickTime format
- file size 1 MB) of Copeland as she sings "Twinkle Twinkle Little
Star"
Write Kathleen an email
Photos and story copyright © 2002 by Copeland's family. All
rights Reserved
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